For my dear friends, I’m really sorry for my absence. I just want to share with you guys why. Right now I’m still emotional but after me sharing everything.. my blog will go back to normal, I just have to share this.Its because of her..
She’s my tita (aunt), my mom’s sister. From her face, you will never guess that she’s not like everyone else.She’s special. Got into an accident when she was young causing her brain to not fully function. Although, she can converse with people and follow easy instructions, she cannot read/write and remember things (But thankfully she remembers all her family members).She’s 41 years old with a memory of a young child. She never got to experience a normal life. My grandma left her with my mom for 25 or more years. I pity her for she was unable to feel the beauty of life but this does not affect her attitude towards us.Always smiling, she takes care of me when my mom is not around because of work. As old as I am now, she still cooks for me and comforts me whenever I need to. Lets just say I’m spoiled when it comes to her. Yes, Im such a lazy bum that sometimes I ask her to feed me, lol..Its just lambing “being sweet”.Whenever I need her she’s there for me.She cleans up my mess, stays with me when I’m not yet sleepy, hugs me at night when I get nightmares, etc. She’s my room mate that even though I get angry a lot, she doesn’t mind but understands. Whenever I need practice with makeup, she’s there, ever so willing. She’s done a lot of things that a blog will simply not do justice. I miss her so much..so much it hurts. I’m the last person she’s with before she got a stroke. Been in the hospital ICU for a week for the treatment of aneurism but nothing can be done. She died this September 15, 2009.I’m an only child that it hurts a lot having only a few people around me and from that few people, someone will be taken away.Up to now I’m still not ok. Memories of her still haunt me.I love her so much. One thing I’m really hurt of is that I haven’t told her I love her..never.I never kissed or hugged her after a long time. I have so many regrets that If I can go back to the time she’s alive, I will do anything.Tita Riza, I love you so much. I hope you can hear me